[ There could be a small part of her, much like Lancelot, that wants to actively seek out self-destruction that stems from her feeling that she is generally an undeserving being. His words do irritate her, however, she was never one to be reasoned with. It felt like she was being patronized by someone.

Because she knew that he's right and she doesn't like being told what she already knows.

Or possessing limits. The Queen of the Britons was raised to do what others told her to do. At one point in her youth (just by happenstance, her current form) that she finally was able to push back.

It's awful, she yearned for any physical comfort so much that she hasn't shoved him away, despite the urge lingering. Despite the fact she catches herself leaning into that gesture. ]

It's not so much a matter of "forgiveness". He wants to be punished, then I'll do it for him for refusing to listen to logic.

[ She's close to going off on a tirade about the Black Knight. Gwenhwyfar scoffs, despite her tears. ]

And if I don't? Then what? I was never human, I can heal myself.

[ But then she risks the cost of losing control of her demonic blood, as they both know. ]